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CHRISTABEL YAP
Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
@flavors.me
A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.
just another day / too young to realise / belated birthday post + outing / happy birthday to the boy / outing with mum / outing / second last day / ..... / workkkk! / cny - day one /
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silence two / Tuesday, November 29, 2011 @ 5:24 PM
When the rainbow started to form in the sky, you do know that it is the start of something. Like in the old fable, when the night that the two long-lost lovers meet each other on that bridge of the colours.
The rainbow appears, constantly giving out signals that nobody could catch. That girl, stands by her balcony, looking at the rainbow in the sky, and starting singing out songs that nobody could ever understand, except for the rainbow.
Who says rainbow is not a living thing? I believe it is, and it gives hope and faith to everybody on the earth. I don't deny that the rainbow is probably some physics, but I do believe in that it is the hope of everyone, somehow within.
That day, the voices of rainbow starts to sing out, and that's when the girl get to know everything about herself.
When the rainbow started to form in the sky, you do know that it is the start of something. Like in the old fable, when the night that the two long-lost lovers meet each other on that bridge of the colours.
The rainbow appears, constantly giving out signals that nobody could catch. That girl, stands by her balcony, looking at the rainbow in the sky, and starting singing out songs that nobody could ever understand, except for the rainbow.
Who says rainbow is not a living thing? I believe it is, and it gives hope and faith to everybody on the earth. I don't deny that the rainbow is probably some physics, but I do believe in that it is the hope of everyone, somehow within.
That day, the voices of rainbow starts to sing out, and that's when the girl get to know everything about herself.
silence / Thursday, November 24, 2011 @ 2:38 PM
VOICES OF RAINBOW
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VOICES OF RAINBOW
when it starts to speak, the colours shined off and reaches to the souls of the hearts. Right there, stood the girl that gazes up and silently pray.
The rain have stopped just few hours ago, and the rainbow starts to give out a sound.
The melody of the rainbow, the melody of life.
Image copyrighted to Google.
BLOG MEME- DAY SEVEN! / Friday, November 18, 2011 @ 10:09 PM
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
TURN OFF ONE
those big mouth that yawn so big in the public. Oh gosh, dude, mind your behavior will you?
TURN OFF TWO
MOUTH WIDE OPEN when you're sleeping. Erm, I don't wish to see a fly flying into your mouth :(
TURN OFF THREE
jeans that are way beyond your waist. Jeans are invented such that it's at your waist. Why is it even all the way down to your butt line or something?? :O
TURN OFF FOUR
don't freaking keep long hair. It's BUSHY, UGLY AND GIRLY. No seriously, cut it and act like what a man is.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
TURN OFF ONE
those big mouth that yawn so big in the public. Oh gosh, dude, mind your behavior will you?
TURN OFF TWO
MOUTH WIDE OPEN when you're sleeping. Erm, I don't wish to see a fly flying into your mouth :(
TURN OFF THREE
jeans that are way beyond your waist. Jeans are invented such that it's at your waist. Why is it even all the way down to your butt line or something?? :O
TURN OFF FOUR
don't freaking keep long hair. It's BUSHY, UGLY AND GIRLY. No seriously, cut it and act like what a man is.
SERIOUSLY? / Wednesday, November 16, 2011 @ 9:02 AM
OH FUCK OFF.
it's our lesson time and guys over there anyhow take out stuffs? HELLO, WE NEED OUR EQUIPMENT.
Just because it's your convenient and then take our stuffs..
JUST GREAT. SERIOUSLY.
OH FUCK OFF.
it's our lesson time and guys over there anyhow take out stuffs? HELLO, WE NEED OUR EQUIPMENT.
Just because it's your convenient and then take our stuffs..
JUST GREAT. SERIOUSLY.
three paths to go / Tuesday, November 15, 2011 @ 11:09 PM
one.
I'll go NIE
two.
I'll go work and plan.
three.
degree in fine arts and design in digiPEN
one.
I'll go NIE
two.
I'll go work and plan.
three.
degree in fine arts and design in digiPEN
EVERY TUESDAY IS A BATTLE. / Monday, November 14, 2011 @ 8:14 PM
BLOG MEME- DAY SIX! / Thursday, November 10, 2011 @ 10:34 AM
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
My mummy.
Mummy have been an important person in my life because not only she understands me, she gives me comments, and is always there to console me no matter what. Even though sometimes when she nag at me and I don't like it, and I'll always complain, but no matter what, I still love my mummy.
Mummy, you know I love you :D
My sisters,
although they're sometimes irritating, and they sometimes pissed me off, deep in my heart I won't hate them of course. We're related by blood and I treasure that sister bonds deeply. Just want to say that, if you all have any troubles, can feel free to come talk to me. I'm 17 already, not that young and childish mei mei you all know anymore.
Meimei love jiejie(s) ! :D
RIKO JESLYN,
We've known each other since secondary one but we're not really very close that time, until I entered JE. Oh, yes, you mean alot to me, and I hate to see you sad, because it upsets me too :( We somehow have some weird bond between us, but oh well, that's another thing to say. Just to tell you that no matter what happens, I'll be there for you, so make sure you're there for me too :P
ABBY WIFEY,
We didn't talk for so long. But I realize that since I've hardly write fanfictions, we have not much topics to talk about. But like riko-chan, I really hope that one day I can go to your country to visit you :) BUT, don't emo okay! It doesn't suit you wifey :(
MY BFF(S),
Thank you guys for been there with me. No matter what. Even though I hardly contact some of you, you do know I'm there if you need me. You can just text me anytime you want alright.
Anyway, I'll always be there for you when you need me alright guys! :D
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
My mummy.
Mummy have been an important person in my life because not only she understands me, she gives me comments, and is always there to console me no matter what. Even though sometimes when she nag at me and I don't like it, and I'll always complain, but no matter what, I still love my mummy.
Mummy, you know I love you :D
My sisters,
although they're sometimes irritating, and they sometimes pissed me off, deep in my heart I won't hate them of course. We're related by blood and I treasure that sister bonds deeply. Just want to say that, if you all have any troubles, can feel free to come talk to me. I'm 17 already, not that young and childish mei mei you all know anymore.
Meimei love jiejie(s) ! :D
RIKO JESLYN,
We've known each other since secondary one but we're not really very close that time, until I entered JE. Oh, yes, you mean alot to me, and I hate to see you sad, because it upsets me too :( We somehow have some weird bond between us, but oh well, that's another thing to say. Just to tell you that no matter what happens, I'll be there for you, so make sure you're there for me too :P
ABBY WIFEY,
We didn't talk for so long. But I realize that since I've hardly write fanfictions, we have not much topics to talk about. But like riko-chan, I really hope that one day I can go to your country to visit you :) BUT, don't emo okay! It doesn't suit you wifey :(
MY BFF(S),
Thank you guys for been there with me. No matter what. Even though I hardly contact some of you, you do know I'm there if you need me. You can just text me anytime you want alright.
Anyway, I'll always be there for you when you need me alright guys! :D
another rubbish post / Saturday, November 5, 2011 @ 12:22 AM
TO TRAP MYSELF
to confused myself, to make myself, to tame myself, to stop myself, to give myself.
In order to do it, I need something to occupy me. In order to occupy me, I need something to make me do it.
In other terms, distractions.
Maybe to you it doesn't matter anymore, but to me it does. Right inside out, it's wrecking upside down. Right up and down, it's wavering left and right.
You taught me that.
So, take responsibility.
TO TRAP MYSELF
to confused myself, to make myself, to tame myself, to stop myself, to give myself.
In order to do it, I need something to occupy me. In order to occupy me, I need something to make me do it.
In other terms, distractions.
Maybe to you it doesn't matter anymore, but to me it does. Right inside out, it's wrecking upside down. Right up and down, it's wavering left and right.
You taught me that.
So, take responsibility.
jilwkefmas / Wednesday, November 2, 2011 @ 7:54 PM
Title: She is.
Genre: Angst
Sometimes, she really hate life as it is.
She's hurting inside. She's wanting to try her best to find a way to deal with it. It's just so funny if she act like nothing wrong when there's something wrong. It's hard. But his words made her to buckle up, even though it should not mean anything to her.
She asked herself why did she put her head into this relationship back then. She asked herself, why did she actually believe him more than anybody else?
She asked herself, why did she love him so much.
She asked, and she asked, and she asked.
"It's not love, it's not love," this phrase repeated in her mind countless times a day. She felt disappointed not seeing him, she felt hatred, but she felt love.
Why? Why did she did something like that? Was she not good enough for him? All the crazy questions came up to her. What if, she wondered, what if back then she didn't get into this relationship, she wondered if she will be as hurt as what she is right now.
She thinks she's alright. Who knows what would she do to herself the next moment. She is hurting inside.
She is. But she can't do anything. He doesn't seem to care. His words hurt her, even until the last moment.
Title: She is.
Genre: Angst
Sometimes, she really hate life as it is.
She's hurting inside. She's wanting to try her best to find a way to deal with it. It's just so funny if she act like nothing wrong when there's something wrong. It's hard. But his words made her to buckle up, even though it should not mean anything to her.
She asked herself why did she put her head into this relationship back then. She asked herself, why did she actually believe him more than anybody else?
She asked herself, why did she love him so much.
She asked, and she asked, and she asked.
"It's not love, it's not love," this phrase repeated in her mind countless times a day. She felt disappointed not seeing him, she felt hatred, but she felt love.
Why? Why did she did something like that? Was she not good enough for him? All the crazy questions came up to her. What if, she wondered, what if back then she didn't get into this relationship, she wondered if she will be as hurt as what she is right now.
She thinks she's alright. Who knows what would she do to herself the next moment. She is hurting inside.
She is. But she can't do anything. He doesn't seem to care. His words hurt her, even until the last moment.
nope, not meme / Tuesday, November 1, 2011 @ 7:50 PM
LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE
the next moment it is there, the next moment it is gone. Things go way beyond what you've imagined, and it's usually for the worst. Ironic isn't it?
Things that are meant to stay just goes, and things that doesn't meant to be always likes to stay to annoy you. I wonder why is it so?
Life have it's ups and downs, and it's true that people must learn to tackle it. But didn't it occur to you that humans are humans. They have feelings, emotions, attitudes, behaviors, and everything adds up to their personality. It's just how so we deal with it as an individual.
Hard isn't it? When something comes straight into your eyes, you still think it's alright. Until when everybody starts to ask you on how are you, things go haywire. That is not what I hope for.. Seriously.
But.. I'm greedy. I yearn for it for like how long I don't know. The words, the actions, the sentences all etched deeply into my heart as the memories replay like some broken recorder, that can't go any further on.
Sometimes I always think that my life isn't fair. There are countless times that I almost get banged by car but I didn't. Was it a warning? One day, I might get banged, one day, i might just leave.
It's weird to think like that.
Maybe it's time.
LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE
the next moment it is there, the next moment it is gone. Things go way beyond what you've imagined, and it's usually for the worst. Ironic isn't it?
Things that are meant to stay just goes, and things that doesn't meant to be always likes to stay to annoy you. I wonder why is it so?
Life have it's ups and downs, and it's true that people must learn to tackle it. But didn't it occur to you that humans are humans. They have feelings, emotions, attitudes, behaviors, and everything adds up to their personality. It's just how so we deal with it as an individual.
Hard isn't it? When something comes straight into your eyes, you still think it's alright. Until when everybody starts to ask you on how are you, things go haywire. That is not what I hope for.. Seriously.
But.. I'm greedy. I yearn for it for like how long I don't know. The words, the actions, the sentences all etched deeply into my heart as the memories replay like some broken recorder, that can't go any further on.
Sometimes I always think that my life isn't fair. There are countless times that I almost get banged by car but I didn't. Was it a warning? One day, I might get banged, one day, i might just leave.
It's weird to think like that.
Maybe it's time.
