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CHRISTABEL YAP
Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
@flavors.me
A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.
just another day / too young to realise / belated birthday post + outing / happy birthday to the boy / outing with mum / outing / second last day / ..... / workkkk! / cny - day one /
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reflection / Sunday, October 30, 2011 @ 8:13 PM
Life is always this unfair,
when you're really in despair, nobody is there to help you.
Dear miaoxue,
I hope you still remember me? Yes, me. I used to talk to you whenever I'm down. You know, sometimes I've wished that you've disappeared from my life, and will never come back again. I wonder where you are now? Happily at a wonderland? Or still at that ruined down temple back then?
You're always there when I needed you. You always appear right before me when I am in trouble. However, lately, you wasn't there. Where did you go? I've missed you so much, but I don't think you will appear right in front of me like how you used to be.
You don't reply me anymore when I write to you, not that I write to you now. I'm sorry for neglecting you. This will be my last message ever to you, and I know you're reading this.
you know, I just want to tell you this.
I'm in love. but, it'll probably will not work out.
Miaoxue, can you hear me? Can you feel what I'm feeling. I know you can.
Yes, I love you too.
Life is always this unfair,
when you're really in despair, nobody is there to help you.
Dear miaoxue,
I hope you still remember me? Yes, me. I used to talk to you whenever I'm down. You know, sometimes I've wished that you've disappeared from my life, and will never come back again. I wonder where you are now? Happily at a wonderland? Or still at that ruined down temple back then?
You're always there when I needed you. You always appear right before me when I am in trouble. However, lately, you wasn't there. Where did you go? I've missed you so much, but I don't think you will appear right in front of me like how you used to be.
You don't reply me anymore when I write to you, not that I write to you now. I'm sorry for neglecting you. This will be my last message ever to you, and I know you're reading this.
you know, I just want to tell you this.
I'm in love. but, it'll probably will not work out.
Miaoxue, can you hear me? Can you feel what I'm feeling. I know you can.
Yes, I love you too.
BLOG MEME- DAY FIVE! / Monday, October 24, 2011 @ 6:03 PM
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
1. I wish I didn't even thought of having a boyfriend when i was primary six.
2. I wish that I didn't did what I did in secondary one, the things with all my friends, and the hatred probably wouldn't spread.
3. I wish that I didn't run back into his arms last time when I was injured, and that way I wouldn't have hurt him even more.
four, five, six are abit unrelated since I've nothing much that i regret in life that i've done.
4. I wish that i am not that insecure and petty and small minded and childish and .. AS.
5. I wish that ... ...... -zips-
6. I wish that life is not as hard as it seems so that everything will be so much lesser painful than it is now.
BLOG MEME- DAY FOUR! / Friday, October 21, 2011 @ 11:01 PM
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
ONE
Sometimes I wonder if I ever come to the correct course. I wonder what happens to my life if I've never get into Ngee Ann, but rather JC, or even other polytechnics.
TWO
If I was any prettier than what I am now, will all my friends be the same still?
THREE
I'm not perfect.
FOUR
I always wonder if my friends really get to know the true me, will they still ever be friends with me.
FIVE
I still don't get it what did i do last time that made them hated me so much?
SIX
Reflection of life and thinking on the mistakes I've done, and solutions I have used to solve them.
SEVEN
More clever.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
ONE
Sometimes I wonder if I ever come to the correct course. I wonder what happens to my life if I've never get into Ngee Ann, but rather JC, or even other polytechnics.
TWO
If I was any prettier than what I am now, will all my friends be the same still?
THREE
I'm not perfect.
FOUR
I always wonder if my friends really get to know the true me, will they still ever be friends with me.
FIVE
I still don't get it what did i do last time that made them hated me so much?
SIX
Reflection of life and thinking on the mistakes I've done, and solutions I have used to solve them.
SEVEN
More clever.
BLOG MEME- DAY THREE / Thursday, October 20, 2011 @ 10:31 PM
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
1. SMILE
2. LOW PETTINESS
3. SWEET
... OKAY, before I continue, I do wish that this is just some random stuffs I am coming up with because I've seriously no idea what can win MY HEART. I'll just write anything possible (not necessary about guys toooo)
4. KINDNESS
5. ATTRACTIVENESS
6. OUTER WEARING! (like package or something?)
7. COLORS
8. SWEEETNESSSSS.
Okay, today blog meme is abit crappy because i've seriously no idea what to type. I don't want to elaborate because I've no idea how to, and also don't wish to.
What if I say I miss you?
/runs away hurriedly/
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
1. SMILE
2. LOW PETTINESS
3. SWEET
... OKAY, before I continue, I do wish that this is just some random stuffs I am coming up with because I've seriously no idea what can win MY HEART. I'll just write anything possible (not necessary about guys toooo)
4. KINDNESS
5. ATTRACTIVENESS
6. OUTER WEARING! (like package or something?)
7. COLORS
8. SWEEETNESSSSS.
Okay, today blog meme is abit crappy because i've seriously no idea what to type. I don't want to elaborate because I've no idea how to
What if I say I miss you?
/runs away hurriedly/
LALALALLA / Wednesday, October 19, 2011 @ 11:26 PM
OKAY, CONCLUSION, MY TANKING REALLY NEEDS TO IMPROVE.
Really am childish, ain't i?
I hate myself for been like this.
That's why I was so afraid to fall in love last time, because I'm like this when I'm in love.. Hmm.. I wonder if it's my fault last time.. like.. I wonder.
OKAY, CONCLUSION, MY TANKING REALLY NEEDS TO IMPROVE.
Really am childish, ain't i?
I hate myself for been like this.
That's why I was so afraid to fall in love last time, because I'm like this when I'm in love.. Hmm.. I wonder if it's my fault last time.. like.. I wonder.
BLOG MEME- DAY TWO / @ 11:04 PM
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
1. I think that when it comes to about friendship, I can be quite sensitive and very afraid of how people think of me.
2. I maybe be kind at some times, but if you pissed me off, you're done.
3. This is probably SO LONG after I've fall so deep.
4. I don't need your FULL attention or whatsoever. I am easy to satisfy. Do some small little actions that will make me happy will do.
5. I will turn crazy at times, and I know some of you have actually experienced that. ops.
6. Don't go overboard and step on my limit. Once it's beyond that, you know what you will get.
7. Aries bear grudges, so I'm also one of them. However, I won't go hating/disliking someone for long. So even if you feel that I am hating you, please just ignore that feeling of yours because if it's true, that hatred will be gone sooner or later.
8. I'm quite childish.
9. I sleep a lot but I still feel sleepy all the times(which I have no idea why.)
Last thing, I want to end this off.
You're driving me head over heels. I'm oh so madly in love.
/runs away/
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
1. I think that when it comes to about friendship, I can be quite sensitive and very afraid of how people think of me.
2. I maybe be kind at some times, but if you pissed me off, you're done.
3. This is probably SO LONG after I've fall so deep.
4. I don't need your FULL attention or whatsoever. I am easy to satisfy. Do some small little actions that will make me happy will do.
5. I will turn crazy at times, and I know some of you have actually experienced that. ops.
6. Don't go overboard and step on my limit. Once it's beyond that, you know what you will get.
7. Aries bear grudges, so I'm also one of them. However, I won't go hating/disliking someone for long. So even if you feel that I am hating you, please just ignore that feeling of yours because if it's true, that hatred will be gone sooner or later.
8. I'm quite childish.
9. I sleep a lot but I still feel sleepy all the times(which I have no idea why.)
Last thing, I want to end this off.
You're driving me head over heels. I'm oh so madly in love.
/runs away/
BLOG MEME- DAY ONE! / Tuesday, October 18, 2011 @ 9:28 PM
So, since I'm bored nowadays and nothing to do, I should do a TEN DAYS MEME CHALLENGE :)
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
One is to my dearest ZW boyfriend,
Thanks for staying beside me all these times. Even if how much we have broke up previously, we've somehow got back together. I enjoyed my times with you, and I hope we'll be together till the upcoming days and years. I may be crazy, and mad, and childish, and fierce, and unreasonable and etc at some or occasionally, but I still hope you'll stick by my side. Loves.
Two is to my ex-best friend Cheryl,
I still can't accept the fact that you left me and Oji-san just for Nicholas. I can't believe that we meant so little to you. Even so, thank you for staying by with me for about three years in secondary school. Those times were fun, and i truly enjoyed it. I hope you're happy.
Three is to my best old man Eddie Oji-san,
Four years or so! Haha! Although we hardly contact through SMS or Phone, we just occasionally miss each other and can talk so much when we meet up. Epic friendship. I know you've some problems, so do remember that if you've any troubles, you can always come and find me to talk to me. You know I'll be here for you!
Four is to my best brother Kaiyong,
I still remember the times when we used to skype all day and then you talked some nonsense shit and I never seem to get bored. Thanks for accompanying me last time! If you have any troubles, you can talk to me too! Or Eddie oji-san :)
Five is to my POTATO AND NUTS,
Hello to Raiyan and Iggy. Thanks for the times when I was in bangkok and you guys were like trying to cheer me up after seeing my tweets. Really appreciated it and that was also when I realized how much I miss you both teasing me. I was actually quite pissed with potato because he owed me money so long never return >[ but it's okay now, I forgive you. Haha! Thanks to nuts for asking as well. :)
Six to my nine year old friend/brother Samuel Wong,
Nine years passed so fast. You should know by now my personality, so I couldn't believe you've tolerated me for nine years! Best friends like life! Really thank you for not blaming me even though I keep scolding you and abusing you. You know I don't mean it~ :D
Seven to Eugene Best friend!
It's been long since we met and I know that we've like... lost touch. But somehow you contact me through facebook so I'm quite happy about it. I'm happy that you've found someone with you, and I'm happy for you! We should really meet up soon !
Eight to RIKO-KOI!
Recently we've somehow grow further apart :( I hate that! I see how you and keanne been so close and I somehow jelly cause both of you have the same topics to talk(now that i've lost touch of JE fandom) I hope you're fine about your results because I really didn't know what to say to console you. If i did offend you or hurt you in my comments, I'm sorry. And really all the best for your studies and don't put too much stress on yourself! I'm here if you need someone to vent to.
Nine to ABBY-WIFEYYYYYY.
I've lost touch with you already but I hope you're doing well! So sorry for been MIA-ing recently, because I'm like back to reality. NEWS fandom hurt me slightly, and I'm kind of like... not wanting to chase them as much because I'm afraid. It takes times for me I guess. So used to flailing for six people will become four soon. It just hurts, but I'll be back, I promise. Fanfictions will be up too, but updates won't be often :)
Ten to my mummy.
Thank you mummy for been by my side all these years and I've appreciated it. No matter what, I'll take care of you till you grow old. I've grown up, and I know what I should do. Stay healthy! Even if sometimes I'm kind of like bitchy towards you, deep down my heart, I still love you mummy.
THAT'S ALL :D
/runs off
So, since I'm bored nowadays and nothing to do, I should do a TEN DAYS MEME CHALLENGE :)
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn-offs.
Day Eight: Three turn-ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
One is to my dearest ZW boyfriend,
Thanks for staying beside me all these times. Even if how much we have broke up previously, we've somehow got back together. I enjoyed my times with you, and I hope we'll be together till the upcoming days and years. I may be crazy, and mad, and childish, and fierce, and unreasonable and etc at some or occasionally, but I still hope you'll stick by my side. Loves.
Two is to my ex-best friend Cheryl,
I still can't accept the fact that you left me and Oji-san just for Nicholas. I can't believe that we meant so little to you. Even so, thank you for staying by with me for about three years in secondary school. Those times were fun, and i truly enjoyed it. I hope you're happy.
Three is to my best old man Eddie Oji-san,
Four years or so! Haha! Although we hardly contact through SMS or Phone, we just occasionally miss each other and can talk so much when we meet up. Epic friendship. I know you've some problems, so do remember that if you've any troubles, you can always come and find me to talk to me. You know I'll be here for you!
Four is to my best brother Kaiyong,
I still remember the times when we used to skype all day and then you talked some nonsense shit and I never seem to get bored. Thanks for accompanying me last time! If you have any troubles, you can talk to me too! Or Eddie oji-san :)
Five is to my POTATO AND NUTS,
Hello to Raiyan and Iggy. Thanks for the times when I was in bangkok and you guys were like trying to cheer me up after seeing my tweets. Really appreciated it and that was also when I realized how much I miss you both teasing me. I was actually quite pissed with potato because he owed me money so long never return >[ but it's okay now, I forgive you. Haha! Thanks to nuts for asking as well. :)
Six to my nine year old friend/brother Samuel Wong,
Nine years passed so fast. You should know by now my personality, so I couldn't believe you've tolerated me for nine years! Best friends like life! Really thank you for not blaming me even though I keep scolding you and abusing you. You know I don't mean it~ :D
Seven to Eugene Best friend!
It's been long since we met and I know that we've like... lost touch. But somehow you contact me through facebook so I'm quite happy about it. I'm happy that you've found someone with you, and I'm happy for you! We should really meet up soon !
Eight to RIKO-KOI!
Recently we've somehow grow further apart :( I hate that! I see how you and keanne been so close and I somehow jelly cause both of you have the same topics to talk(now that i've lost touch of JE fandom) I hope you're fine about your results because I really didn't know what to say to console you. If i did offend you or hurt you in my comments, I'm sorry. And really all the best for your studies and don't put too much stress on yourself! I'm here if you need someone to vent to.
Nine to ABBY-WIFEYYYYYY.
I've lost touch with you already but I hope you're doing well! So sorry for been MIA-ing recently, because I'm like back to reality. NEWS fandom hurt me slightly, and I'm kind of like... not wanting to chase them as much because I'm afraid. It takes times for me I guess. So used to flailing for six people will become four soon. It just hurts, but I'll be back, I promise. Fanfictions will be up too, but updates won't be often :)
Ten to my mummy.
Thank you mummy for been by my side all these years and I've appreciated it. No matter what, I'll take care of you till you grow old. I've grown up, and I know what I should do. Stay healthy! Even if sometimes I'm kind of like bitchy towards you, deep down my heart, I still love you mummy.
THAT'S ALL :D
/runs off
correct / Tuesday, October 11, 2011 @ 9:46 PM
YOU WERE RIGHT,
I probably hold grudges, but please understand me. I would take some time to ease off the thing in my mind. I'll never hate her. Please don't say you regret or shouldn't have told me. Because, I'm glad you told me.
YOU WERE RIGHT,
I probably hold grudges, but please understand me. I would take some time to ease off the thing in my mind. I'll never hate her. Please don't say you regret or shouldn't have told me. Because, I'm glad you told me.
bangkok trip diary twelve, / Friday, October 7, 2011 @ 11:11 AM
JUSTICE.
there is no such thing, only the outspoken wins.
the softspoken are always the outcast, the always 'wrong'.
JUSTICE.
there is no such thing, only the outspoken wins.
the softspoken are always the outcast, the always 'wrong'.
bangkok trip diary eleven, / Tuesday, October 4, 2011 @ 2:26 PM
HAPPY 1ST MONTH :)
I've nothing much to say here. All I've wanted to say is inside the card I've given you. And most importantly, thank you :)
bangkok trip diary ten, / Sunday, October 2, 2011 @ 1:20 AM
JUST ANOTHER 7 MORE DAYS
seven more days and i'm going to leave this oh-so-terrible place.
JUST ANOTHER 7 MORE DAYS
seven more days and i'm going to leave this oh-so-terrible place.
