Journal Entry Fifteen / Friday, July 31, 2009 @ 4:35 PM
Journal Entry Fifteen

good evening miss sophis-ticated ,

Boring over here . There's accupuncture tomorrow morning at 9am . Somehow , after this afternoon's nap , i feel so restless ? I don't know why either . Oh gosh , i didn't see hakim korkor today ): Today during assembly , i was sitting behind on my wheelchair , but somehow i wanted to join in my classmates and sit on the foyer . Lots of teachers came by and asked for my well-being , appreciation :D First lesson was english , somehow , because of the announcements , lesson was dragged and there's NO BOLT TODAY ! D: After that , it's maths :) Maths was quite okay , but there's homework ): PE went out quite ok , and jielin was like searching the hell long around for jasmine and weiwen , and we went one big round around the school just to find them . Also , today during bio SPA lesson , we did experiment , and i was sitting on the laboratory chair :D After that , raynian was in front and then he turned behind and ask me to talk . And then , i went " Hello , ni hao ma ? " dhen he gave me the "diao" look . Well , he told me to talk right , as he's bored , so i talked :D After bio experiment , i had ASP with mr tan . It's about blood ? :D Okay , after that lunched at school before coming home :0 There's math ASP for me next week on monday and ST on monday . Sigh , i suddenly feel so down . I suddenly though of what happen last year , when he mentioned something to me . Oh gawds, why am i feeling all emotional ?

miss.sophis-ticated♥
shooing off unnecessary thoughts

Journal Entry Fourteen / Thursday, July 30, 2009 @ 5:26 PM
Journal Entry Fourteen

good evening miss sophis-ticated ,

Long time no post over here already . Is it long ? I don't know . Recently , have being feeling rather weird all over . I wonder why ? The picture ? It's Able from Night of the Museum 2 . It's specially dedicated to celine law (: It's cute right ? Well , i hope she likes it . Kaiyong gorgor is being really evil lately ): He loves his computer games more than me , in oder words , his computer games are more important than his mei over here D: Gone case . He's incurable ): Eddie oji-san and me and cheryl lovely have being having recess together for the past 2 days (: And he really did cheer me up with his non sensical actions :D And ! Hakimkorkor came by to talk to me during recess ! And i saw him for 3 times today also . Awws , i simply love my hakimkorkor so much (: of course kaiyong gorgor as well although he's bullying me always ): OH ! There's mass gathering tomorrow :D hope it turns out fine ? There's lab tomorrow also ><

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Thirteen / Monday, July 27, 2009 @ 9:55 PM
Journal Entry Thirteen

good night miss sophis-ticated ,

I've come back from hospistal . I wonder if i'm "lucky" or "unlucky" . The test result for a particular "disease" came out as positive . It's called Mycroplasma antibodies , the percentage found inside is 1/160 , and the skin doctor said that it should be treated . But yet , if i take the antibiotics for the infection , the side effects are diarhoea , gastric , and breathing difficulty . Thus , my mother don't want to give me because she's afraid adding up to the steroids side effect ,the side effect might be stronger . Thus, i did another blood test to test if the Mycroplasma antibodies is detecting of a strong one , or a weak one . If it's a weak one , then we will treat it later . And i'll declare that , TINGYONG MR WALL IS OFFICIALLY BULLYING ME ): He's always bullying me and he claimed that he don't . So innocent uh . ): Anyway, eddie-ojisan told cheryllovely he misses me ! :D Hoho :B , he misses chanel teh and cheryl as well :D . Awwws , but i miss his laughter more than his person :P . Complication , my body is so naughty ):

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entrt Twelve / @ 10:05 AM
Journal Entry Twelve


good morning miss sophis-ticated ,

The picture is cool right ? Hahas , my friend send it to me . It's a website , and it can even make much more cooler pictures . Anyway , it's school time now , but i'm now at home . My kneecaps hurts abit . Somehow , i still hates my body , and somehow , yesterday's feelings came back again . Don't feel like even bothering about anything . I don't even feel like doing anything . But at least , this morning i'm able to do a fandub . I love the Yafu Yafu Nano ni , it's such a sad song, that makes me realise what love is all about . Haha . Silly , in what position do you have now to know about love miss sophis-ticated ? You don't have the rights . Oh well , anyway , i'm going to the hospital for check up . Somehow , i feel pissed off right now , meaning , whoever that's talking to me , i'll feel pissed off . Like , stop it will you ? Like , just hell stop . I don't want to talk to anybody right now . Argh , what's wrong with me ? I just don't get it . Stupid illness , it's making me lose my momentum . ): I'm missing hakim korkor , kaiyong gorgor now . I wonder what are they doing ?

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Eleven / Sunday, July 26, 2009 @ 8:01 PM
Journal Entry Eleven

good night miss sophis-ticated ,

It's at night. Tomorrow's monday . I just talked to miss jasmine domo and told her what the doctor told me . The skin doctor on friday told me that there's two kind of rashes on my body . One is the side effect of the steroids i'm currently on medication , the other one is another kind of rashes which the doctor is afraid that it might spread and become a disease. This disease is very rare , and if the rashes spread and forms ulcer in my mouth and the skin tears , and then it is the rare disease , and it is fatal . Yes , fatal . But so far , there's no ulcer in my mouth , and so far the skin haven't tear , so i'm safe . But , now my whole body is full of rashes and it's horrifying . I feel like i'm in someone's else body and i don't know this body at all . It's like , the sight of the rashes on my body makes me want to puke , makes me want to leave this not-my-body . And once again , i've realise out something i shouldn't have realise . Oh gosh , what's wrong with me . It's none of my buisness isn't it ?

miss.sophis-ticated♥
it's fatal

Journal Entry Ten / @ 3:44 PM
Journal Entry Ten

good afternoon miss sophis-ticated ,

It's sunday . I'm not going to school tomorrow . I have an appointment at the Mt Alvernia Hospistal . To be exact , it's two appointments . One for the skin doctor specialist , the other is the follow up of the neurologist doctor . Great , after it seems like my strength is getting better , it seems like another problem is arousing . Oh yea , my rashes gotten worser last night, and i have no mood these few days . Last night , it seems like my knees and below got heavy and it seems so different . I just don't understand , why must this happened to me ? I want to be any other normal people , walking around . Now , my knees hurts . It seems quite heavy now . I'm perspiring , the weather is kind of hot . Seriously , i'm now like living my life non sensically , like a no-life dude . But at least , i still able to be carrying on my lif normally? But just that , nothing seems to be the same as before anymore . I'm not that lively , i'm not that active anymore . Even my tuition teacher says that when i talk , i sounds lethargic , and i don't sound so bubbly , and happy anymore . I wonder why . Oh , and i guess i saw something i should not have seen ? But anyway , it don't realy bother me anyway . It's none of my buisness whatever you do , it's not my buisness.

miss.sophis-ticated♥
it's none of my buisness to care

Journal Entry Nine / Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 6:26 PM
Journal Entry Nine

good evening miss sophis-ticated ,

I can't believe it . Unfairness ? Have you ever considered my feelings ? You're always out last time . Unfairness ? What's this ? You claimed that you don't feel like you're part of the family , then have you ever considered that where were you when i need the family the most ? I'm always asking for you when i'm at the hospital . Ask yourself , where were you ? You're out somewhere , hardly coming to visit me . It's ok . Then , when i'm at home , have you ever asked me how have i being ? I'm over there , trying my best to make you laugh , trying my best to make you don't feel frustrated about her comments . What did you do ? You did nothing , no , you did not give a reaction at all . It's not bias , she'll never be bias . Did you know she cried because of me yesterday ? You didn't know . You didn't know how afraid she was when i was in trouble . I felt like burden , like i couldn't do anything to help to lighten off the responsibility they're bearing . Do you know how terrible that felt ? Do you even know that , how terrible is that going to feel ? You never asked me how i feel , even if you're at the hospital , is your heart there ? I don't think so . All you ever do is your handphone , your labtop . You never bother to really care for me . All your mind now is boyfriend and friends . Yes , i used to think that too . I used to think i don't belong in the family also , but , after this incident , i realise that only your family could be there for you when you're in trouble . They're the ones that will go through thick and think with you . So what's up with your not belonging in the family ? Stop your bullshit and get your mind outta here . You cannot disown us , because we're blood-related, and nothing could change that fact . How can you claim that she's taking away your freedom !? She's not . She asked you to come home early because she's scared . Scared ? Scared because if something happen to me , at least there's someone at home to help her . You don't know how much responsibility she's facing , you don't know how much she's being doing all these years for us . She's tired , really tired . If i could do something to help , i would . If i could do something to lessen her burden , i will . But now , i don't have that power , i don't have that strength to do so . Why can't you understand ? Why can't you even try ? You didn't try . All you do is stucking up your nose over there , and complaining all you ever want . If you don't feel yourself in this family , then find a place . There's a place for you , it's only up to you if you want to chose to sit on it , or leave it there forever .
The choice is yours .

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Eight / @ 2:25 PM
Journal Entry Eight

good afternoon miss sophis-ticated ,

It's saturday . Passed one day safely . My rashes have spread , and it looks horrible . I hope it will reduced . I don't even want to bathe now , so afraid to look at my body , my face . ): Somehow , it's freaking me out . What's going to happen to me i wonder ? I'm not going to school on monday , the rashes are horrific , and it's kind of itches here and there . Today accupuncture turns out fine ? I suddenly doesn't have the mood to do anything now . Whatever i do , i find it boring . Probably due to my illness ? I don't know either . I have tuition tomorrow morning . And my mathematics homework is not done yet . Oh great , i'm going to miss monday ST (-.-) Thank you very much , mr rashes , argh -.- . Seriously , i don't know when i'm going to recover , and i hate this kind of life . My rashes , i hate you . Just begone will you ? You're making me hate my body so much .

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Seven / Friday, July 24, 2009 @ 10:06 PM
Journal Entry Seven


good afternoon miss sophis-ticated ,


I am currently at Mt Alvernia Hospital , the Siow Neurologist clinic. Apparently , I suddenly had an utbreak of rashes around my body , which is not supposed to be the case . But yet , I am now rather worrying about Monday's ST. Hm , humanities , SS , structured essay , Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland . Am i able to pass ? So afraid that I will flunk it totally ): Oh my , my whole body is so gruesome and I'm like a leopard . no ! A red leopard ): Poor thing right ? Sigh . I'm now also worrying about tomorrow's accupuncture instead. It's going to hurt at that particular point again . Sigh . once again , complication .

miss.sophis-ticated♥
complication once again

good night miss-sophis-ticated ,

It's middle in the night now . Just finish the doctor in the evening . I don't wish to talk about it anyway. Doctor say it might be some kind of disease or something ? Just that , i had some lotion and i hoped when apply that time i will recover :0 It's just that , my rashes are so red and disgusting ): There's really accupunture tomorrow :0 . Oh ! And i'm bored ;0 . Oh , and during recess i saw kaiyong gorgor and mr wall ! Gorgor blur blur again , mr wall told him and then he saw me . What kind of gorgor is he ): Anyway, korkor don't cry ! Mei is alright (: I will be like last time , jumping up and down and saying hello to you everyday ! :D Somehow , i'm motivated to recover :D

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Six / Thursday, July 23, 2009 @ 9:10 PM
Journal Entry Six

Good night miss sophis-ticated ,

It's 9:11pm now and i am typing this journal ? My thumb on my right hand hurts , thanks to my itchy hands as i peeled off the skin . Just now this afternoon , left early for my accupunture and physio therapy . It's tiring now , and i feel all so horrible . Saw my korkor today during recess . He smiled at me :D . I hate this , the stupid medicine makes me crave for foods , but yet i cannot eat much due to my bloated tummy . Worse more is that , it is making my feet and cheeks swollen up . How terrible ? I need to wear an oversize shoe tomorrow to school so that my feets won't feel tight . I want my body back to normal . No more wheelchair , no more exercises . Although it's fun being sitting on the wheelchair , but there is a limitation of freedom of movement . Imagine that ? My mummy is also always stopping me from eating as she's afraid i will get bloated tummy at night , but i just can't stop myself from eating ! And , when she stopped me , i feel so frustrated and i could cry . Now my thumb hurts , what is going to come next ? My knee cap hurts now , and i think i have over work my muscle . I'm restricted to foods now . No iced , no hot and spicy , no fast food , no deep fried . All i can eat now is simple , and plain food . What's life ? There's bio test tomorrow and i am definately flunking it . I don't even understand abit about it , and i am awefully tired now . I don't have the mood for anything at all .
Depriving from food , that's the worst scenario i ever thought of .

miss.sophis-ticated♥
i want my body back to normal

Journal Entry Five / Wednesday, July 22, 2009 @ 4:41 PM
Journal Entry Five

Good evening miss sophis-ticated ,

Boredoom . I went back to school yesterday . It's okay ? I just don't like those eyes . I was so tired yesterday , and had a hard time sleeping at night , as there's pain all over my body . Oh my gosh . It's terrible . There's chinese spelling today , and i think i somehow manage to struggle through it . I don't know what's wrong with me recently , but somehow , I don't really feel like bothering about anything . I feel so vexed , frustrated , and any other more feelings could come . Suddenly , i thought of my diary , and i've realise it's being so long since i last wrote inside it . Perhaps , the feeling is lost , and i can no longer write inside it ? I don't know either . I bet nobody know what i'm talking now because i've never mention this to anyone before . It's just a book , nothing more to see into . I totally missed hakimkorkor today . Oh yea , and i saw him in traditional shirts yesterday , which i squeal at ! I mean , it's so handsome ! And when he saw me on wheelchair , and called me mei , i was so happy and glad that i could jump onto him . I also rememebered that kaiyonggorgor sms-ed me when he said he saw me on wheelchair , and i think the one who told him that was tingyong mr wall ? I saw mr wall talking to kaiyonggorgor before he saw me , blur gorgor . I'm going for accunpunture on thursday , which is tomorrow after school . Oh , and i'm also having a chinese test tomorrow , which is "congratulation" to me ? I hope i pass . During history today , i almost cried . Hitler is too terrible , too think i actually almost said to learn his leadership qualities , am i stupid ? Probably , because i saw the article of the students and i might not know that Hitler was that CRUEL . The video was gruesome , when i saw it , i could cry . There was this group of army that went into a house and there's this wheelchair bound old man . He could not stand up , and the people demanded him to stand . When he didn't stand up , the head of army odered his man to lift him up , and then they carried him to the balcony and throw him down . Worst still , it's about more that 5 storeys high . When i saw it , i was so shocked , and scared . After that, they shot all the people died , leaving none alive . And there's still so many other cruel scenes that yet to be shown to us by Mr Arasu . I swear i'm not looking forward to the next History lesson . It's too cruel , and too violence , i can't take it .

miss.sophis-ticated♥
curses and swears to hitler's cruelty

Journal Entry Four / Monday, July 20, 2009 @ 8:09 PM
Journal Entry Four

Good evening miss.sophis-ticated ,

It's evening , obvious ? I just bathe finish , and i'm feeling all bloated in my tummy . I didn't even being able to eat my dinner . Poor thing right ? It's all because of the stupid medicine . It makes me want to eat when i'm not hungry , and forbids me to eat when it fills my tummy with air . The doctor gave me a dosage of 8 tablets every twice a day . But starting tomorrow , it will be 4 in the morning , and 8 in the night . At least it's better . I can't wait for school tomorrow , i wonder what awaits me . I'm sorry to my classmates who need to shift the classroom to first level , it's all because of my inconvenience which troubles everybody as well . Oh my gosh , daddy♥ reached Singapore already ! I'm so happy ! Later daddy♥ is coming home with wheelchair (><) . Somehow , i wonder how my day will start tomorrow , and i'm somehow dreading but not dreading school . Half-half i guess . complication once again .

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Three / @ 11:01 AM
Journal Entry Three

Good morning miss sophis-ticated ,
Just woke up not long ago . Had a bad dream for three consecutive nights . OH ! And alas , the fish bone in my throat is gone already ! :D I'm so happy . Oh rights , now i'm just staring at my computer screen , really not sure what to do right now . Just came back from the hospistal , and the doctor was happy with my improvement . OMGOSH . I miss daddy♥ , he's coming home tonight ! :D
Somehow , i'm really hoping to go to school as soon as i can . Hmms , maybe i should start reading up about maths topic ? I don't know , i don't have the mood either . Greats , doctor say i am exempted from all kinds of physical activities , and i'm just wishing that i could hurriedly catch up with my classmate's pace and hurriedly do something rightful ? Actually , i don't know what i'm talking either way .
complication ; isn't that what i am ?

miss.sophis-ticated♥

Journal Entry Two / Sunday, July 19, 2009 @ 6:50 PM
Journal Entry Two

Good evening miss sophis-ticated ,

complication . I just swallowed a fish bone , so disgusting ): . Awwws , i want to go back to school , and i'm missing school so much . All i could do now , is sitting on the bed , and resting and waiting to see when i can go to school again . Okay , not that bad , at least now i could walk normally , and i could also stand . But now , the stupid fish bone ): i swear i'm not going to eat fish anymore . So scary .
Okay , for now , some senseless speakings . I'm missing kaiyong gorgor♥ blur face , tingyong's talking to the wall , hakim korkor♥ sweet and cute face ! lulu-romeo♥ hyper-activeness , eddie oji-san♥ crazy laughter ;x
and many many classmates lame jokes♥

There's ST tomorrow , good luck to all ! :D

miss.sophis-ticated♥
i'm still cursing the stupid fish bone .

Journal Entry One / @ 12:12 PM

Journal Entry One

Good morning miss sophis-ticated ,

It's the first post . I guess i've really nothing to type here . This is just a small personal blog of mine . I think not alot of people will read , anyway , i don't really hope alot of people to read anyway . I just want to have a blog of my own , and post a post once in awhile . If you're wondering who's miss sophis-cated , that's me ? I'm greeting myself . Yes . SOPHIS-TICATED . I'm complicated .

miss sophis-ticated♥

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