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CHRISTABEL YAP
Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
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A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.
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happiness is hard to find / Wednesday, June 27, 2012 @ 12:50 PM
No matter how hard it is to find happiness, i will still be there
this Chinese song is stuck inside my head right now. I realize when I have mood swing, I just tend to keep blogging. I don't want to keep it inside me and at the same time, i don't have any close friend in my course to share.
when i woke up this morning, it felt like everything around me was black and white. Truthfully, I really wanted to skip school and escape reality, even if it's just for one day. But i can't, morning had an important lesson and afternoon have a submission to do.
when times like yesterday and today came, I always think alot. From my first relationship all the way to my third. I keep asking myself if it's me, or that it's them. I keep asking if is it me. I wondered why didn't they accept for who am i.
One of them told me that it was his fault. I didn't really care, I was so obsessed with them that all I wanted was for him to stay by my side. I was so in love with him, back then. Now I just keep thinking of the bad and good to feel for my current crush.
I don't know how he thinks of me. He didn't say anything about me. I feel so afar from him, so not beyond my reach. My friend told me it's normal, I know it's normal. But you will think that he doesn't belong to you only, but to others. Mum told me probably he is trying to keep a low profile or whatever, so I just nodded my head.
But one thing i didn't tell my mother was that i was really upset last night. I went home, listened to a song, and cried. imagine, a song, i cried. What?? so ridiculous.
MOOD SWINGS
I spent one night thinking and thinking, i could not find a solution, a solution of the best of both world.
I couldn't believe, I couldn't start to believe. I am so scared and afraid. They say we shouldn't be linking our past to our present, but then we will still have that fear inside of us.
You're not scared of dark, you're scared of what is in it
You're not afraid of height, you're scared of falling
You're not afraid of the people around you, you're just afraid of rejection
You're not afraid to love, you're just afraid of not being loved back
You're not afraid to let go, you're just afraid to accept the reality that he's gone
You're not afraid to try again, you're just afraid to get hurt for the same reason
i shall end this post off with the quotes above. Indeed, those quotes speaks my mind.
No matter how hard it is to find happiness, i will still be there
this Chinese song is stuck inside my head right now. I realize when I have mood swing, I just tend to keep blogging. I don't want to keep it inside me and at the same time, i don't have any close friend in my course to share.
when i woke up this morning, it felt like everything around me was black and white. Truthfully, I really wanted to skip school and escape reality, even if it's just for one day. But i can't, morning had an important lesson and afternoon have a submission to do.
when times like yesterday and today came, I always think alot. From my first relationship all the way to my third. I keep asking myself if it's me, or that it's them. I keep asking if is it me. I wondered why didn't they accept for who am i.
One of them told me that it was his fault. I didn't really care, I was so obsessed with them that all I wanted was for him to stay by my side. I was so in love with him, back then. Now I just keep thinking of the bad and good to feel for my current crush.
I don't know how he thinks of me. He didn't say anything about me. I feel so afar from him, so not beyond my reach. My friend told me it's normal, I know it's normal. But you will think that he doesn't belong to you only, but to others. Mum told me probably he is trying to keep a low profile or whatever, so I just nodded my head.
But one thing i didn't tell my mother was that i was really upset last night. I went home, listened to a song, and cried. imagine, a song, i cried. What?? so ridiculous.
MOOD SWINGS
I spent one night thinking and thinking, i could not find a solution, a solution of the best of both world.
I couldn't believe, I couldn't start to believe. I am so scared and afraid. They say we shouldn't be linking our past to our present, but then we will still have that fear inside of us.
You're not scared of dark, you're scared of what is in it
You're not afraid of height, you're scared of falling
You're not afraid of the people around you, you're just afraid of rejection
You're not afraid to love, you're just afraid of not being loved back
You're not afraid to let go, you're just afraid to accept the reality that he's gone
You're not afraid to try again, you're just afraid to get hurt for the same reason
i shall end this post off with the quotes above. Indeed, those quotes speaks my mind.
