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CHRISTABEL YAP
Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
@flavors.me
A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.
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Journal Entry Nine / Saturday, July 25, 2009 @ 6:26 PM
Journal Entry Nine
good evening miss sophis-ticated ,
I can't believe it . Unfairness ? Have you ever considered my feelings ? You're always out last time . Unfairness ? What's this ? You claimed that you don't feel like you're part of the family , then have you ever considered that where were you when i need the family the most ? I'm always asking for you when i'm at the hospital . Ask yourself , where were you ? You're out somewhere , hardly coming to visit me . It's ok . Then , when i'm at home , have you ever asked me how have i being ? I'm over there , trying my best to make you laugh , trying my best to make you don't feel frustrated about her comments . What did you do ? You did nothing , no , you did not give a reaction at all . It's not bias , she'll never be bias . Did you know she cried because of me yesterday ? You didn't know . You didn't know how afraid she was when i was in trouble . I felt like burden , like i couldn't do anything to help to lighten off the responsibility they're bearing . Do you know how terrible that felt ? Do you even know that , how terrible is that going to feel ? You never asked me how i feel , even if you're at the hospital , is your heart there ? I don't think so . All you ever do is your handphone , your labtop . You never bother to really care for me . All your mind now is boyfriend and friends . Yes , i used to think that too . I used to think i don't belong in the family also , but , after this incident , i realise that only your family could be there for you when you're in trouble . They're the ones that will go through thick and think with you . So what's up with your not belonging in the family ? Stop your bullshit and get your mind outta here . You cannot disown us , because we're blood-related, and nothing could change that fact . How can you claim that she's taking away your freedom !? She's not . She asked you to come home early because she's scared . Scared ? Scared because if something happen to me , at least there's someone at home to help her . You don't know how much responsibility she's facing , you don't know how much she's being doing all these years for us . She's tired , really tired . If i could do something to help , i would . If i could do something to lessen her burden , i will . But now , i don't have that power , i don't have that strength to do so . Why can't you understand ? Why can't you even try ? You didn't try . All you do is stucking up your nose over there , and complaining all you ever want . If you don't feel yourself in this family , then find a place . There's a place for you , it's only up to you if you want to chose to sit on it , or leave it there forever .
The choice is yours .
miss.sophis-ticated♥
Journal Entry Nine
good evening miss sophis-ticated ,
I can't believe it . Unfairness ? Have you ever considered my feelings ? You're always out last time . Unfairness ? What's this ? You claimed that you don't feel like you're part of the family , then have you ever considered that where were you when i need the family the most ? I'm always asking for you when i'm at the hospital . Ask yourself , where were you ? You're out somewhere , hardly coming to visit me . It's ok . Then , when i'm at home , have you ever asked me how have i being ? I'm over there , trying my best to make you laugh , trying my best to make you don't feel frustrated about her comments . What did you do ? You did nothing , no , you did not give a reaction at all . It's not bias , she'll never be bias . Did you know she cried because of me yesterday ? You didn't know . You didn't know how afraid she was when i was in trouble . I felt like burden , like i couldn't do anything to help to lighten off the responsibility they're bearing . Do you know how terrible that felt ? Do you even know that , how terrible is that going to feel ? You never asked me how i feel , even if you're at the hospital , is your heart there ? I don't think so . All you ever do is your handphone , your labtop . You never bother to really care for me . All your mind now is boyfriend and friends . Yes , i used to think that too . I used to think i don't belong in the family also , but , after this incident , i realise that only your family could be there for you when you're in trouble . They're the ones that will go through thick and think with you . So what's up with your not belonging in the family ? Stop your bullshit and get your mind outta here . You cannot disown us , because we're blood-related, and nothing could change that fact . How can you claim that she's taking away your freedom !? She's not . She asked you to come home early because she's scared . Scared ? Scared because if something happen to me , at least there's someone at home to help her . You don't know how much responsibility she's facing , you don't know how much she's being doing all these years for us . She's tired , really tired . If i could do something to help , i would . If i could do something to lessen her burden , i will . But now , i don't have that power , i don't have that strength to do so . Why can't you understand ? Why can't you even try ? You didn't try . All you do is stucking up your nose over there , and complaining all you ever want . If you don't feel yourself in this family , then find a place . There's a place for you , it's only up to you if you want to chose to sit on it , or leave it there forever .
The choice is yours .
miss.sophis-ticated♥
