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CHRISTABEL YAP

Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
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A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.

i don't matter / you don't matter / let the picture do the speaking 2, / if you don't know, don't say. / let the picture do the speaking 1, / HORRIBLE TUESDAY / cover cover cover / RYUTARO, WE LOVE YOU / short / movie + fun fun fun :D /

i'm just frustrated. / Tuesday, July 26, 2011 @ 8:02 AM
It's not my personality to type things out onto the net(because i don't like the fact that people think that I am gaining pitiness)

So, this happened in about one month ago? I thought he was the one that could make me really stay devoted into a relationship. I thought all awhile, the problem was with me. I tried to be with a person, i failed. And then, he came, and i thought he was the one that  could really make me... fall in love.

Maybe it was wrong after all. I wasn't that crazy. No, I mean, I was crazy. Why did i even tried so hard to make myself to have someone with me? I wasn't desperate, I just needed that someone to be by my side because it's not one that friends could fufil (or so i think at that time)

Really, I thought that you could change my whole life. I thought that he was the one, so i tried. I did say i was tired of breaking up. He was the first one that made me so determined to start with a person that i barely know a few days. I admit, i was rash. I didn't heed my friend's advice. Why didn't I, because I was jealous that all my friends had that someone beside them.

When I slowly got with you, I know that you're the someone that is very good, nice, kind and everything that I could seek for. I know you was the one. But yet, i couldn't go against my ownself. WHY CAN'T YOU FREAKING GET IT. I know you're hurt, but you're not as hurt as me. There are things you still don't know about me. YOU DON'T know how much I went through in my life. I'm not seeking for anyone perfect.

i am not a bitch..
stop insulting me like i'm in the wrong. In a relationship, there's no right or wrong alright? 

Why? The most hurtful thing was you had the cheeks to drag in my friend, mention his name onto facebook, and even openly scolded me and him. You thought that we were steads, do you even know the fact. NO. Do you remember the nine years friend I talking about.

IT'S HIM.

I felt guilty towards you and always check your facebook status to ensure you're okay. I was doing the same routine yesterday when I saw your updates. I was angry- not because you're saying about me. Because you're saying about my friend. MY BEST FRIEND when you ASSUME that he's my stead.

Why? Why are all guys wrongly accusing me? I hate it when someone says that I am the one that deserved this. They don't know what I'm thinking. Why am i not telling anybody about it? It's just  not my style, so don't ask.

Since young, I have lived through life with handling with myself. I know that I should be independent.

It even hurts me more that you're calling me a bitch when you don't know anything. The fact that I broke up with you was because it's not working out. Why are you insisting to get me back when I don't even want to? Who says that after a relationship, we can't act like nothing is happening? Why are you intruding my life when I'm already so pissed up with life? Why are you intruding into how I HANDLE things when you're not me?

YOU'RE NOT ME, DON'T DECIDE HOW I LIVE MY LIFE. 

You're so pathetic. I don't know if i should be angry or sad towards you. Trust me, don't push my limits. If you don't know, try me.

I WILL NOT want to go to the last resort.
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