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CHRISTABEL YAP
Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
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A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.
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You're not worth the time / Monday, November 29, 2010 @ 10:52 PM
You're not worth the time.
I should have given up long ago, and I was just a fool to think that an 'us' have existed before. I'm sealing up the Christmas presents, and not giving you anymore. I was the only one holding onto 'us' when it doesn't even exist anymore. Or isit that, right from the start, it didn't even have a us?
Two times. She have made me lose two guys two times, and I thought that I was just the loser here. Wait, is there even a game in the beginning? I wish I could hate her, but I can't. Hating her is much more easier, then clinging onto you.
I guess she is the angel, and I am the devil. I guess right from the start, I shouldn't even have believe in the word 'love' because it doesn't exist at all, ne? I was a fool, and a big fool at it.
I shall no longer be that innocent girl, thinking that someday my white prince riding on a horse, coming by to save me. Because he doesn't exist all all in my life. I've lost the big war, and I have lost the rights.
No, I don't hate you. I can't bring myself to hate you. Stupid right? I wish I could hate it, i wish I could forget all the pain by hating it, but it's useless.
What was with the 'I'll prove to you by action since you don't believe my words'? I read your past blog posts, and I find it rather silly, to have put all my trust onto you, and crushing my own hope once again. No, I'm not comparing, I just find myself SILLY enough.
I thought that deep down in your heart, there's a ME. But I guess i was wrong, because ultimately, I will never exist in your heart anymore.
If it's like that, I'm fine with you.
Because, thanks to you, I'll never fall so hard in love again.
I'm not making you guilty, and, trust me.
It's hard to hate you, and her. It's even harder, for me.
You're not worth the time.
I should have given up long ago, and I was just a fool to think that an 'us' have existed before. I'm sealing up the Christmas presents, and not giving you anymore. I was the only one holding onto 'us' when it doesn't even exist anymore. Or isit that, right from the start, it didn't even have a us?
Two times. She have made me lose two guys two times, and I thought that I was just the loser here. Wait, is there even a game in the beginning? I wish I could hate her, but I can't. Hating her is much more easier, then clinging onto you.
I guess she is the angel, and I am the devil. I guess right from the start, I shouldn't even have believe in the word 'love' because it doesn't exist at all, ne? I was a fool, and a big fool at it.
I shall no longer be that innocent girl, thinking that someday my white prince riding on a horse, coming by to save me. Because he doesn't exist all all in my life. I've lost the big war, and I have lost the rights.
No, I don't hate you. I can't bring myself to hate you. Stupid right? I wish I could hate it, i wish I could forget all the pain by hating it, but it's useless.
What was with the 'I'll prove to you by action since you don't believe my words'? I read your past blog posts, and I find it rather silly, to have put all my trust onto you, and crushing my own hope once again. No, I'm not comparing, I just find myself SILLY enough.
I thought that deep down in your heart, there's a ME. But I guess i was wrong, because ultimately, I will never exist in your heart anymore.
If it's like that, I'm fine with you.
Because, thanks to you, I'll never fall so hard in love again.
I'm not making you guilty, and, trust me.
It's hard to hate you, and her. It's even harder, for me.
