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CHRISTABEL YAP
Nineteen. Currently residing in the Singapore. I enjoy jpop and anime. I'm not the nicest person on earth, but I'm a lot of fun.
@flavors.me
A little love I had for you remains. Whatever it meant to be disappeared,
should just go away. And now, all I wanted is actually his little attention to me.
Just a small little attention will do, show me that i am important to you.
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Journal Entry Thirty-Three / Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 6:20 PM
Journal Entry Thirty-Three
good evening miss sophis-ticated,
Topic 1 : Why are they always high and mighty?
Is it always like this? Why is it that i always feel that people are way above me, and i am becoming smaller and smaller? Is it that they're growing, or isit that i am shrinking? I don't understand, how could they simply being so clever in everything and always being the top. Me? I'm always at the bottom, always being compared to. People usually say "Different people have different talents." What about me? Where's my talent? I only knew that i myself is always messing around. How would i ever be as high and mighty as them? Acoring nearly full marks, getting the praises from others. I want that too, but i couldn't get it. No matter how hard i try, when i got good grades, all i got was negative remarks like, "Don't be bossy about it". What could i have done wrong?
Topic 2: Love and Hatred
How could one people love and hate one person at the same time? Is it possible? No, i don't think so anyway. It's either i'll hate or i'll love him. I'm thinking of chosing hatred. Maybe by hating him, i won't get that overwhelming feeling anymore. I'm feeling sophis-ticated, i'm feeling ignorant..
Topic 3: Studies are priority
I'm always being scolded for not studying. How i wish , i could be like a bird, spreading it's wings and flying around, longing for freedom. How i wish, i could be so carefree, not worrying anything, living my life to the upmost fullest. But none of these will happen, stuyding is being made priority in my life. There's no such thing as " i want to go out with my friends" on weekdays, there's no such thing as "i want to watch tv"on weekdays for my life. All i could do is study study study sleep, eat study.
Topic 4: Am i suppose to be born in this gender?
Alot of people said i don't behave like a lady at all, some call me nicknames. Sometimes, i don't mind as they are making fun, but yet sometimes, their words just got stuck in my mind, and i couldn't get it off, no matter how hard i tried. Is it because i'm not suppose to be a girl, or am i born in the wrong gender?
I passed o-bento to the following people, tingyong ( indirectly ) and weikiam ! :D , hope they like it, and wanting to thanks for their great help (:
miss.sophis-ticated♥
Journal Entry Thirty-Three
good evening miss sophis-ticated,
Topic 1 : Why are they always high and mighty?
Is it always like this? Why is it that i always feel that people are way above me, and i am becoming smaller and smaller? Is it that they're growing, or isit that i am shrinking? I don't understand, how could they simply being so clever in everything and always being the top. Me? I'm always at the bottom, always being compared to. People usually say "Different people have different talents." What about me? Where's my talent? I only knew that i myself is always messing around. How would i ever be as high and mighty as them? Acoring nearly full marks, getting the praises from others. I want that too, but i couldn't get it. No matter how hard i try, when i got good grades, all i got was negative remarks like, "Don't be bossy about it". What could i have done wrong?
Topic 2: Love and Hatred
How could one people love and hate one person at the same time? Is it possible? No, i don't think so anyway. It's either i'll hate or i'll love him. I'm thinking of chosing hatred. Maybe by hating him, i won't get that overwhelming feeling anymore. I'm feeling sophis-ticated, i'm feeling ignorant..
Topic 3: Studies are priority
I'm always being scolded for not studying. How i wish , i could be like a bird, spreading it's wings and flying around, longing for freedom. How i wish, i could be so carefree, not worrying anything, living my life to the upmost fullest. But none of these will happen, stuyding is being made priority in my life. There's no such thing as " i want to go out with my friends" on weekdays, there's no such thing as "i want to watch tv"on weekdays for my life. All i could do is study study study sleep, eat study.
Topic 4: Am i suppose to be born in this gender?
Alot of people said i don't behave like a lady at all, some call me nicknames. Sometimes, i don't mind as they are making fun, but yet sometimes, their words just got stuck in my mind, and i couldn't get it off, no matter how hard i tried. Is it because i'm not suppose to be a girl, or am i born in the wrong gender?
I passed o-bento to the following people, tingyong ( indirectly ) and weikiam ! :D , hope they like it, and wanting to thanks for their great help (:
miss.sophis-ticated♥
